किताबी · bookish
Kitaabi
Kitaabi means bookish — and kitaabi gyaan, book learning, the studied kind. Books and coursework filed together by subject rather than by format, because that’s how the interests actually run. Open any one for what stuck. Standing rule on the reading: voices from within the world they describe.
politics & geopolitics
a world of three zerosmuhammad yunus
nobel laureate muhammad yunus (grameen bank / microcredit) lays out a program for an economy aimed at three zeros: zero poverty, zero unemployment, zero net carbon emissions.
- the central critique: capitalism as built assumes people are pure profit-maximizers, which bakes in inequality — yunus argues for "social business," enterprises run to solve problems rather than to maximize dividends.
- he reframes people as natural entrepreneurs (not just job-seekers) and credit as a human right, extending the microfinance logic to youth unemployment and climate.
- it's a manifesto more than an analysis — optimistic, prescriptive, built around real grameen-linked examples of the model at work.
deng xiaoping and the transformation of chinaezra vogel
ezra vogel's massive biography of deng xiaoping, centered on how deng steered china's opening and reform after mao — the story of one man's role in remaking a fifth of humanity.
- the thesis: deng, more than any single figure, engineered china's pivot from maoist isolation to market reform and global integration — "reform and opening" as a deliberate, staged project.
- vogel stresses deng as a pragmatic organizer rather than a theorist ("crossing the river by feeling the stones"): loosen the economy, keep the party's political monopoly intact.
- it doesn't dodge the cost — tiananmen sits inside the same leader who delivered the growth — framing the tension between economic liberalization and political control that still defines china.
destiny disruptedtamim ansary
a history of the world told from the islamic point of view — retelling the sweep of events from muhammad to the present as they looked from within the muslim world, not from europe.
- the core move is a shift of perspective: for centuries the islamic "middle world" saw itself as the center of a coherent civilizational story, not a periphery to the west.
- ansary argues two narratives (western and islamic) ran on parallel tracks and only collided late — the shock of that collision, when islam's story got "disrupted" by rising european power, still shapes the modern rupture.
- it frames much of today's tension as the unfinished business of a civilization trying to reconcile its own arc with the world order the west built.
from third world to firstlee kuan yew
lee kuan yew's memoir of how singapore went from a poor, resource-less port to a first-world state in a single generation — part policy record, part personal account of governing.
- the argument: pragmatism over ideology — pick what works (clean government, rule of law, open trade, pro-business policy, heavy investment in education and housing) rather than fit a doctrine.
- lky is candid that this ran on a firm, illiberal hand — social discipline, controlled press, meritocratic technocracy — and defends that trade-off as the price of order and growth in a fragile multi-ethnic state.
- also a foreign-policy memoir: how a tiny state stays relevant by playing the great powers (us, china, the region) carefully.
no good men among the livinganand gopal
the afghanistan war told from the ground up, through three afghans caught inside it — a taliban commander, a us-backed warlord, and a village housewife ([[heela]]). gopal's argument cuts hard against the official story: after 2001 the taliban had mostly surrendered, but the us needed enemies to fight, so warlords fed it the names of their own rivals as "taliban" and settled private scores on the american dime. the war largely *manufactured* the insurgency it claimed to be fighting.
the communist manifestokarl marx & friedrich engels
the 1848 pamphlet that launched modern communism — marx and engels' short, polemical statement of historical materialism and a call to working-class revolution.
- the core claim: "the history of all hitherto existing society is the history of class struggles" — history is driven by conflict between the class that owns the means of production and the class that labors.
- it argues capitalism (the bourgeoisie) is revolutionary but self-undermining: it creates the very proletariat that will overthrow it, concentrating misery even as it concentrates wealth.
- ends programmatic — abolition of private property, the workers of the world uniting — as much a rallying document as an analysis.
A spectre is haunting Europe — the spectre of communism.
the messageta-nehisi coates
ta-nehisi coates on writing, myth, and power — three linked essays built around trips (senegal, south carolina, palestine) that examine how the stories we tell construct political reality.
- the throughline is that narrative is never neutral: myths and "messages" about race, nation, and belonging do real political work, and writers are implicated in that.
- the palestine essay drew the most attention — coates reads israel/palestine through the lens of segregation and jim crow he knows from home, arguing the on-the-ground reality was obscured by the story he'd been told.
- it's as much about the responsibility of the writer as about any one place — using clear seeing as a moral and political act.
- diplomatic practiceO.P. Jindal Globalcourse
- foreign policies of great, middle, and small powersO.P. Jindal Globalcourse
- global affairs explained: managing the international systemCouncil on Foreign Relationscourse
- global affairs explained: the fundamentalsCouncil on Foreign Relationscourse
- global affairs explained: twenty-first century challengesCouncil on Foreign Relationscourse
- global diplomacy – diplomacy in the modern worldUniversity of Londoncourse
- international communication and east asian affairs (3)National Taiwan Universitycourse
- power and international relationsO.P. Jindal Globalcourse
- practical cultural awareness from a global perspectiveMichigan Statecourse
fiction
as long as the lemon trees growzoulfa katouh
a ya novel set in war-torn syria, following salama, a pharmacy student turned volunteer in a bombed-out hospital in homs. she wrestles with whether to flee or stay as the revolution collapses around her.
- puts a human face on the syrian civil war — daily survival, loss, and the moral weight of leaving vs. staying.
- salama's hallucinated companion "khawf" (fear) externalizes her trauma and inner conflict.
- love and hope persist against catastrophe; the lemon trees are the symbol of a homeland worth clinging to.
brave new worldaldous huxley
huxley's 1932 dystopia: a future world state that engineers stability through mass-produced happiness — conditioning, consumerism, casual sex, and the drug soma. control by pleasure rather than by force.
- the counterpoint to orwell: oppression here isn't jackboots, it's comfort. people are kept docile by getting exactly what they're conditioned to want.
- the cost of frictionless happiness is anything real — art, deep feeling, suffering, meaning. john "the savage" is the argument that a life without pain isn't a fully human one.
- stability is the state's highest value, and everything — family, truth, individuality — is traded away to protect it.
But I don't want comfort. I want God, I want poetry, I want real danger, I want freedom, I want goodness. I want sin.
ficcionesjorge luis borgesreading now
borges' famous 1944 collection — metaphysical puzzles disguised as short stories. a library that contains every possible book, a man who can't forget anything, an infinite garden of forking paths, a world invented by an encyclopedia that starts leaking into reality. ideas as fiction; each story is a thought experiment you can hold in your hand.
- **fiction as philosophy.** borges smuggles infinity, time, identity, and the nature of reality into ~10-page stories. no war, no plot machinery — just a mind playing with the deepest puzzles.
- **built for a systems brain.** labyrinths, libraries, mirrors, recursion, maps that become the territory — it lights up exactly the part of you that loves systems and design.
- **short, dense, re-readable.** you don't read borges once; you sit with a single story and it keeps unfolding.
giovanni's roomjames baldwin
baldwin's 1956 novel about david, a young american man in paris, and his affair with an italian bartender named giovanni. a tight, tragic study of shame, desire, and the cost of refusing to be who you are.
- the real subject is self-denial, not just sexuality — david's inability to accept his own longing is what wrecks everyone around him.
- baldwin writes it with almost no black characters and set entirely in france — a deliberate move that let him treat masculinity and shame on their own terms.
- claustrophobic by design: giovanni's room becomes a literal and moral space you can't escape, mirroring the trap of a hidden life.
People who remember court madness through pain, the pain of the perpetually recurring death of their innocence; people who forget court another kind of madness, the madness of the denial of pain and the hatred of innocence.
life of piyann martel
a novel about pi patel, an indian boy who survives a shipwreck and is stranded on a lifeboat in the pacific with a bengal tiger named richard parker. part survival adventure, part meditation on faith and the stories we tell to bear reality.
- survival at sea is the surface; underneath it's about belief — pi practices hinduism, christianity, and islam at once.
- the ending's two versions force the question of which story you'd rather believe, and what truth even means.
- the tiger is both literal threat and mirror of pi's will to live.
ms ice sandwichmieko kawakamireading now
a slim japanese novella narrated by a boy transfixed by "ms ice sandwich" — the woman with electric-blue eyelids who sells sandwiches at the local supermarket. under the crush, it's about a kid learning to actually *see* people, set against his grandmother's slow fading.
- **small book, whole world.** kawakami compresses first love, grief, and growing up into a handful of pages — the child's-eye attention doing the heavy lifting.
- **learning to look.** the real arc isn't the crush; it's the boy discovering that noticing someone fully is its own kind of courage.
nectar in a sievekamala markandaya
a novel narrated by rukmani, a peasant woman in rural south india, tracing her life of marriage, farming, motherhood, and relentless hardship. it watches an agrarian village get upended by industrialization.
- endurance under grinding poverty is the core — hunger, monsoons, and loss as constants, met with quiet resilience.
- modernization (a tannery moving in) disrupts the old rural order and the family's fragile stability.
- a woman's-eye view of tradition, hope, and survival where nature and economy both give and take without mercy.
on earth we are briefly gorgeousocean vuong
a lyric autofictional novel written as a letter from a vietnamese-american son to his illiterate mother. told in fragments, it braids together immigration, war trauma passed down through generations, queer first love, and addiction.
- form is the point — poet's prose, non-linear, more emotional accumulation than plot; language itself carries the grief.
- inherited trauma runs through it: his mother and grandmother's vietnam-war wounds shape a family that can't quite speak to each other.
- tenderness and violence sit side by side — a coming-of-age about being queer, poor, and the child of refugees in america.
rejectiontony tulathimutte
a linked short-story collection about the many faces of rejection — social, sexual, romantic — in the internet age. sharp, uncomfortable, and darkly funny, it maps loneliness, resentment, and online-mediated alienation.
- each story circles a different way of being unwanted, from incel-adjacent bitterness to performative wokeness masking need.
- brutally satirical about identity, self-image, and the internet's warping of intimacy.
- the stories interconnect, building a bleak portrait of contemporary isolation and self-delusion.
river spiritleila aboulela
a historical novel set in 1880s sudan during the mahdist revolt against ottoman-egyptian rule. told through multiple voices centered on a young woman, akuany/zamzam, it follows ordinary lives swept up in a religious uprising.
- a many-perspective portrait of the mahdi's rebellion — faith, colonialism, and war seen from the ground up.
- centers a woman's fate and loyalty amid violent upheaval, complicating the usual grand-narrative of the period.
- explores how zealotry and empire both crush the individuals caught between them.
siddharthahermann hesse
hesse's 1922 novel following a brahmin's son in ancient india who leaves everything — asceticism, teachers, wealth, love — in search of enlightenment, and finds it only by living through the whole range of experience himself.
- the core claim: wisdom can't be taught, only lived. siddhartha rejects even the buddha's doctrine because truth has to be earned firsthand, not received.
- the river is the central symbol — time, unity, the idea that everything coexists at once. listening to it is what finally settles him.
- a full arc through opposites — spirit and flesh, denial and indulgence — is treated as the necessary path, not a detour from it.
Knowledge can be communicated, but not wisdom. One can find it, live it, be fortified by it, do wonders through it, but one cannot communicate and teach it.
the helpkathryn stockett
stockett's 2009 novel set in 1960s jackson, mississippi, told across three women — two black maids and a young white writer — who secretly collaborate on a book of the maids' accounts of working in white households.
- the engine is the act of telling: giving voice to domestic workers whose stories were structurally silenced, and the danger that carries in the jim crow south.
- braids the personal and the political — friendships, employers, and daily indignities stand in for the larger machinery of segregation.
- widely read but also critiqued for centering a white protagonist's arc in a story about black women's lives — worth holding both at once.
the kite runnerkhaled hosseini
a novel following amir, a well-off boy in kabul, and his complicated bond with hassan, the servant's son. spanning afghanistan's fall into war and amir's later life in america, it's a story of betrayal and the long road to redemption.
- guilt and atonement drive it — a childhood act of cowardice that amir spends a lifetime trying to make right.
- class, ethnicity (pashtun/hazara), and loyalty shape every relationship in it.
- backdrop is afghanistan's history — monarchy, soviet invasion, taliban rule — seen through one family's diaspora.
for you, a thousand times over.
the map of salt and starszeyn joukhadarset aside
a novel braided from two girls eight centuries apart: [[nour]], a syrian-american girl fleeing the 2011 war with her family, and [[rawiya]], a 12th-century girl who disguises herself as a boy to apprentice with the great mapmaker al-idrisi. the two journeys rhyme — both are about leaving home, crossing a dangerous world, and using story to hold onto what a map can't.
- **story as survival.** nour keeps telling rawiya's tale to stay whole while her own world comes apart — the book's quiet claim that narrative is how you carry a home you've lost.
- **the map as metaphor.** you map the world to find yourself in it; when home is erased, you have to redraw both. displacement, eight centuries apart, is the same ache.
- **grief is the engine.** baba's death sits under everything — zahra's meanness, nour's retreat into story — the family reshaped by loss even before the war scatters them.
the stationery shop of tehranmarjan kamali
kamali's 2019 novel about roya and bahman, two teenagers who fall in love in a tehran stationery shop in 1953, only to be separated amid the political upheaval of the cia-backed coup — and reunited sixty years later.
- a love story braided into a real historical rupture: the 1953 overthrow of mossadegh is the force that pulls the couple apart.
- the stationery shop stands for books, poetry, and possibility — a small world of beauty against a backdrop of political violence.
- ultimately about fate, missed messages, and how a single misunderstanding can quietly redirect two whole lives.
memoir
between the world and meta-nehisi coates
a book-length letter from coates to his teenage son on what it means to inhabit a black body in america — history, fear, and the physical stakes of race, written as intimate counsel rather than argument.
- centers the body: race in america is felt as a threat to physical safety, not an abstraction.
- interrogates "the dream" of white american innocence and the systems that protect it.
- refuses easy hope or redemption, opting instead for clear-eyed honesty passed from father to son.
curfewed nightbasharat peer
kashmir under indian counter-insurgency — a memoir of growing up inside the conflict.
- **january–february 1990 was the hinge.** the memoir keeps circling back to these two months as the moment kashmir tipped — mass killings, massacres, street fighting, crackdowns, and the open eruption of the insurgency and the counter-insurgency both. the everyday (school, home, cricket) gets overrun by curfews, interrogation centres, and the disappeared.
- peer writes the conflict from *inside* an ordinary life — the subject isn't the geopolitics, it's what occupation does to a childhood, a family, a valley.
*"why didn't the fortune-tellers predict the lines in his palms would be cut by a knife?"*
everything i learned, i learned in a chinese restaurantcurtis chin
curtis chin's coming-of-age memoir set in his family's chinese restaurant in 1980s detroit, where he grows up as a gay chinese american amid a decaying city, a big immigrant family, and the regulars at the tables.
- the restaurant is the lens: identity, class, and race in detroit all pass through its booths and kitchen.
- braids together being asian american, gay, and coming of age against real events like the murder of vincent chin.
- warm and funny in tone but grounded in the immigrant family's labor and the era's tensions.
greenlightsmatthew mcconaughey
a memoir stitched together from decades of mcconaughey's diaries, framing his life as a series of "greenlights" — the wins, failures, and course-corrections he learned to say yes to. part life story, part loose philosophy of living deliberately.
- reframes hardship as redirection: the "red lights" eventually turn green if you keep moving and pay attention.
- built from real journal entries, so it reads as raw and anecdotal rather than a polished self-help formula.
- a running thesis about persistence, catching the moment, and designing a life around what you actually want.
the beautiful struggleta-nehisi coates
coates's first memoir, about coming of age in 1980s–90s west baltimore under his father paul — a former black panther and self-publisher obsessed with getting his sons through a world built to consume young black men.
- a father-son story: paul coates's discipline, black consciousness, and books as the tools he uses to shield his kids from the streets.
- captures the tension between the "struggle" of the neighborhood and the beauty coates finds in language, hip-hop, and knowledge.
- an origin story for the themes coates later sharpens in between the world and me.
the fire next timejames baldwin
two essays on race, religion, and america (1963). the first is a letter to baldwin's nephew on the centenary of emancipation; the second is a longer reflection on christianity, the nation of islam, and what it would take to break the cycle.
- **the "nice friends" trap.** pointing to all the good, kind people you know is the story of *exceptions* — it is not proof the system is cordial. individual goodwill and a just system are two different things, and mistaking one for the other is the whole error. baldwin's quiet, brutal closing note: the genuinely good white people come *seldom*.
- we're blinded by our own bias in seeing what the system is and what it isn't — the exceptions around us edit reality down into something gentler than it actually is.
- baldwin is **angry at the system** — and once you read him, it makes sense why. the anger isn't a flaw in the writing; it's earned.
But it is not permissible that the authors of devastation should also be innocent. It is the innocence which constitutes the crime.
this american womanzarna garg
a 2025 memoir by comedian zarna garg, tracing her path from escaping an arranged marriage and a stint homeless as a teenager in india to reinventing herself as a stand-up and immigrant success story in america.
- an immigrant reinvention story — the throughline is refusing the script handed to her and building a life on her own terms in a new country.
- garg's comic voice carries it: the hardship is real, but it's told with the timing and self-deprecation of a stand-up set.
- part underdog memoir, part meditation on being both indian and american at once, and what a woman is "allowed" to want in either.
we beat the streetsampson davis, george jenkins, rameck hunt
the joint memoir of three friends from newark who made a pact in high school to become doctors and pulled each other through — later known as "the three doctors."
- friendship-as-accountability: the pact is the mechanism that gets them out of poverty and into medicine.
- alternating first-person chapters walk through the specific pressures — drugs, incarceration, low expectations — they each had to beat.
- an inspirational template aimed at young readers about mentorship, choices, and defying environment.
growth & philosophy
courage - the joy of living dangerouslyosho
osho reframes courage not as fearlessness but as the willingness to move into the unknown despite fear. the core idea: real living means trusting uncertainty instead of clinging to the safe and familiar.
- courage isn't the absence of fear — it's stepping into the unknown while the fear is still there.
- security is the enemy of aliveness; a life spent avoiding risk is a slow death of the spirit.
- trust (in existence, in the moment) is what lets you let go of the known and grow.
courting the wild twinmartin shaw
mythologist martin shaw reads two old folktales to argue that each of us has a "wild twin" — the disowned, feral part of the self — that we must go out and meet. the core idea: wholeness comes from courting what culture told you to abandon, not from self-improvement.
- there's a part of you left behind at birth — the wild twin — and maturity means going to find it, not managing it away.
- myth and story are tools for initiation, ways of speaking to the parts of life that literal, modern language can't reach.
- the point isn't taming the wild self but entering a real relationship with it — dangerous, generative, alive.
something in the woods loves youjarod k. anderson
part memoir, part nature writing, jarod anderson traces how paying attention to the natural world pulled him through severe depression. the core idea: the woods don't fix you, but reconnecting with the living world reminds you that you belong to it — and that belonging is a reason to stay.
- nature isn't a self-help cure; it's a relationship — noticing it reorients you away from the isolation of depression.
- attention is the practice: looking closely at ordinary living things is itself a form of survival and repair.
- "something in the woods loves you" is a stance toward existence — that the world is on your side even when your mind isn't.
the next conversationjefferson fisher
a practical communication guide from trial lawyer jefferson fisher, built around the idea that the quality of your life tracks the quality of your conversations. the core move: argue less, talk more — trade winning points for understanding the person behind the words.
- you don't rise to the level of your arguments; you fall to the level of your communication — so build the skill deliberately.
- de-escalation beats domination: staying calm and asking better questions defuses defensiveness more than being "right" ever does.
- concrete phrases and framing (assertive, not aggressive) are learnable tools, not personality traits.
the will to changebell hooks
bell hooks examines how patriarchy harms men themselves — teaching them to suppress emotion in exchange for power. the core idea: men can't love or be whole until they're allowed to feel, and that requires dismantling the masculinity they were trained into.
- patriarchy doesn't just oppress women; it emotionally maims men by demanding they trade feeling for dominance.
- boys are taught early to sever from their inner lives, and that disconnection is the root of much male violence and loneliness.
- love and masculinity-as-domination are incompatible — men have to relearn emotional presence to actually connect.
- the science of well-beingYalecourse
craft & observation
how to build a fashion iconlaw roach
stylist law roach's 2024 book (subtitle: *notes on confidence from the world's only image architect*) — part memoir, part styling philosophy from the man behind zendaya's red-carpet run. the core idea: an "icon" is built through confidence and intention, not born.
- reframes styling as "image architecture" — building a public identity on purpose, where clothes are a tool for self-possession.
- pulls from his own path from chicago vintage-shop owner to a-list stylist to argue confidence is the real skill.
- practical and personal: behind-the-scenes styling moments doubling as lessons in owning how you show up.
songs on endless repeatanthony veasna so
a 2023 posthumous collection of essays and unfinished fiction (subtitle: *essays and outtakes*) by anthony veasna so, who died in 2020. it braids his voice on cambodian-american identity, family, queerness, art, and pop culture with outtakes from the novel he never finished.
- the essays are the heart — sharp, funny, and personal on growing up the child of genocide survivors in california's central valley.
- the "outtakes" are fiction fragments that show a young writer's raw process, left deliberately unpolished.
- published after his death, so it reads as both a book and a portrait of a talent cut short.
the art of gatheringpriya parker
parker's 2018 book on how we meet and why it matters — treating gatherings (dinners, meetings, weddings, funerals) as things you design, not just host. the core idea: purpose, not logistics, is what makes a gathering work.
- start with a specific, disputable purpose — "why are we really here" — and let it drive every decision, not the default script for that kind of event.
- good hosting is generous authority: a host who sets clear structure and gentle rules serves guests better than one who stays hands-off.
- the venue, guest list, and opening moments do quiet work — small design choices shape whether people actually connect.
the psychology of everyday thingsdon norman
norman's 1988 foundational text on human-centered design (later reissued as *the design of everyday things*). the core idea: when a door, stove, or gadget confuses you, the fault is bad design, not you.
- introduces the vocabulary designers still use — affordances, signifiers, mapping, feedback, and constraints — for how objects tell you how to use them.
- "user error" is usually a design failure: good design makes the right action obvious and the wrong action hard.
- everyday frustrations (push/pull doors, cryptic controls) are the case studies for a general theory of usable things.
thinking in systemsdonella meadows
a primer on systems thinking — stocks, flows, feedback loops, leverage points. assembled posthumously from meadows' unpublished 1990s manuscript. meadows was a systems scientist at MIT and lead author of *Limits to Growth* (1972).
you're not listeningkate murphy
journalist kate murphy's 2020 book on the lost art of listening — why we're bad at it and what real attention actually requires. part reporting, part argument that listening, not talking, is where connection happens.
- listening is an active, learnable skill, not a passive default — most people are just waiting to talk or already rehearsing a reply.
- draws on interviews with people who listen for a living (bartenders, cia agents, focus-group moderators) to show what good attention looks like.
- a culture of broadcasting and distraction is eroding the ability to actually hear each other, at a real cost to relationships and understanding.
zaha hadid - complete worksphilip jodidioreading now
a slow / reference read — not a cover-to-cover book. keep it around, flip through, let the eye absorb form, flow, and how space moves. for the *overall picture of design*, not strictly interiors.
- **motion, frozen.** zaha's whole language is fluidity made solid — buildings caught mid-sweep, no straight line where a curve will do (heydar aliyev center, guangzhou opera, the london aquatics centre).
- **from unbuildable to built.** decades of "paper architecture" — drawings everyone said couldn't stand — until computation and engineering caught up and let the curves hold. the arc runs from her malevich-inflected paintings straight into realized form.
- **a signature you can read across a skyline.** first woman to win the pritzker (2004); love it or not, a zaha building is unmistakable — the rarest thing in the field.
there are 360 degrees, so why stick to one?
- history of rock, part twoUniversity of Rochestercourse
- the blues: understanding and performing an american art formUniversity of Rochestercourse
data & code
- ask questions to make data-driven decisionsGooglecourse
- data visualizationUIUCcourse
- foundations: data, data, everywhereGooglecourse
- introduction to html5University of Michigancourse
- machine learningStanfordcourse
- programming for everybody (getting started with python)University of Michigancourse
- python data structuresUniversity of Michigancourse